Milestone - pre-K graduation

I'm pretty sure I took this picture last week. Pretty certain. 

I'm not sure when it became a "thing" but my sweet babies are graduating from preschool tomorrow. 

If you're a regular reader of the blog, you know what I think about time. I think it's a MFing bitch. It's like I look up, and months have passed by, literally. In fact, I feel like I JUST wrote this post like, yesterday, and boom. They are almost FIVE AND A HALF. http://www.mandywithmultiples.com/2015/01/on-eve-of-your-fifth-birthday.html?m=0

God, time. You're sure an asshole. 

I know I should be so happy and proud that they are graduating. But I have all those other feelings. 

The fact that they aren't babies anymore.

 

The fact that they will be walking down the hall with eleven year olds.

The fact that I have no other little babies at home. (Having twins just seals that deal for you)

The fact that I have no more firsts. No more first words, no more first steps, no more first anything really. I'm all done. And it makes my want to bawl my eyes out. They are "kids" now. 

The fact that it seems like I decided to become a stay at home mom two seconds ago. When I made this decision I decided that because we had twins and once they started school, they were "gone" I wanted to cherish a year and a half home with them before they started school. And then I looked up and it's here. Like, NOW. Seriously time. You're an asshole. 

The fact that I adore their school. The LOVE it and everyone in it. What a blessing it's been. Not only are my babies growing up, but we have to say goodbye to so many great people. 

The fact that they have to say goodbye to their friends. I know reality. These kids are going off to different elementary schools. I feel like I'm sending my high school senior off to a different college than his best friends. Sad, but true. 

I know I'm throwing a pity party for myself, and I'm sure tomorrow will be fine. But tonight I sulk. And reminisce. And just remain sad. 

My Snuggle Bug

I have this sweet guy back. He's left me a lot lately. 

Sometimes he's a shit. 

Sometimes he's a big boy and not my little sweet guy anymore :(

Sometimes he's too cool for Mommy. 

The past two days he's been my sweetie again. It hasn't taken much. An animal book actually- he took an interest in blue whales so we've been reading about them and watching You Tube. A little thing- but now mommy is cool again and it's something we have shared and is "our thing". 

Tonight as I'm putting him to bed, he asks that I hold him and rock in my arms for a minute. 

"Mommy, I love snuggling with you. Even if I have friends over, or get big, and married, I'll always want to snuggle with you" 

I then said I Thank God for you buddy, and he said, "I thank God for you, Mommy" 

Again,  he can be a royal shit at times,but between tonight and the fact that pre-k graduation is on Friday, it's been a sappy week 😢😢😢😢

Oh how I love my little cuddle bug and snuggle bunny. He will always be 💜💜

Happy Mothers Day 2015

Mothers Day. It always brings up so many feelings. I vividly remember when I was trying to have my babies. Mothers Day I simply dreaded. I hated going to church, I hated going out to eat. Mothers were everywhere, being celebrated and cherished, and I was just wondering if it would ever happen to me. 

Then it did :) and I'm a lucky lucky girl. 

On 2015, here are my thoughts on this Mothers Day. 

1. I think about those soon to be Mothers, who haven't yet been able to experience motherhood but want to so desperately. Please know I've been in your shoes and I know how lonely and sad you are today. I hope you get your dream soon.

2. I think about my sweet friends who have lost their moms way too soon. I know how hard Facebook will be for you today seeing all the mom posts.  And I hope you'll have a wonderful day thinking about your mom and cherishing your memories. 

3. I think about my mom and her fight with breast cancer this past year. When she called and told me she had cancer I never went to "that place" - that place deep in the back of your mind where you think about a world without your mom. I just couldn't. She is the most important person in the world. And she fought it bravely and with a smile on her face and a laugh in her eyes. She finished all treatments a couple of months ago. We are so, so thankful and grateful to God and her great doctors. 

4. I think about my kids, and how much fun it is to be their mom. Being a mom has certainly changed me. I always wondered the type of mom I would become. I got many different parenting traits from each of my parents. I got reasoning, patience, kindness and love of music from my mom. I got my silliness, "having fun with the kids like a kid", love of sports, and my temper, lol, from my dad. Both of my parents did a great job raising me and my sisters. We are as close as can be in light of all our dysfunction ;) 

5. I think about if I'm doing good as a mother. I have my good days and bad days. Some days are blissful, some days are a struggle. Some days, I feel like Mom of the Year, others a complete failure. I hope my kids will look back on their life and say I was an awesome Mom. When I decided a year and a half ago to stop working so I could stay at home with them before they started kindergarten, no one told me how fast this was going to go. Like- lightening speed. Here is it summertime, and they start school in August. I hope my kids have loved this time with me as much as I've loved it with them :)

6. I think about my mother in law, and how great it is and lucky I am to have her in my life. I think about my two nieces Olive and Sutton, and how great it is to be able to share this awesome "Mom Club" with them. And to be able to witness your sister and sister-in-law become "moms"is just pretty cool. You can explain it all day long, but once it happens to them it's just magical. 

7.  I think about my daughter Jules. I hope one day that she'll want to be a Mommy. I hope she will get to experience this wondrous joy as I have. And I hope Im around to see her become a Mommy, and look at her with her babies like the way my mom looks at me with mine. I hope she will be a great mom and take pieces of me and Jake with her, and shape her into this amazing mom. 

8. I think about this day, and as all days, how truly lucky and blessed I am. Happy Mothers Day to everyone!!! 

Easter 2015

had to take a pic before they took off towards the Easter basket! And yes, this is how she came downstairs. She wanted to sleep in a pretty dress and wanted her hair in a side pony with the flower clip. Ha!

Family Pic!

We went to lunch in Waverly, so I decided to get out my camera and take some pics of everyone :)

so very typical of them right now. Josh holding a basketball. Jules with a lovey and a thousand bracelets and necklaces. 

Seriously - little models. 

our cousin Lisa is due to have a baby literally any day now - shes past 40 weeks at this point!! So I took some pics of them as well :)

Olive Turns TWO!!

Our sweet niece Olive (Jake's sister's daughter) turned two in March. She had an absolutely precious Bubble Guppies party in Waverly. Can't believe she's TWO!!